Surrender

Hmm, i’ll like to say again that WE HAVE AN AWESOME GOD, & HE’S JUST SO SUPER AMAZING (: (: (: I love Him from the bottom of my heart! <3

i understand why He had to say those 4words to me on sunday. it was in preparation. this week’s lesson that He has delivered to me is Forgiveness, Surrendering & just seeing & being patient with His plan. its amazing, how i’ve been thinking of the word forgiveness & that was the theme for this week’s devotions (if anyone didn’t realize). this week has been a whirlwind. & i’m glad He reminded me once again that He IS real, He is there watching over at the end of the week. He reminded us that in times of confusion & darkness He’s still there. & there’s always a lesson to be learnt out of everything, whether good or bad. i’m glad for it, in fact i can almost hug it (though technically you can’t. how can you hug an issue or matter?!) i’m so glad. like what dunno who said in Heartsaflame, use your weaknesses to testify. for it is in our weaknesses that God heals & changes. why would He bother about the strengths & good points about people when its already.. good? He came down to save the lost, the poor, the evil, the sinners. with your weaknesses, testify to people. & i believe that we can do it, with Him as our strength. its about time to get rid of horrible habits. i feel as if God was gently calling us, gently disciplining us. & i’m super thankful for that.

i’m awfully thankful for such AWESOME friends (: i admire your strength, your humbleness, your graciousness. its amazes me & encourages me. its realy amazing how God put the same thoughts in our minds. so much so we didn’t need to repeat that to each other cus we are thinking of the same thing! more time for the encouragement (: yes we need accountibilty. i thank God for such great sisters-in-Christ. <3

& so that previous paragraph was a shoutout to DIANE ONG & GRACE LEE (: thank God for you two! lets jiayou together alrigght?

on another note altogether, GRACE! my mummmmy got the Secret Soundtrack! ahhh, super lovely (:

I Made That Happen

NOTE: POST WAS TYPED OUT ON SUNDAY, 27TH JULY 2008

like what diane said, heart’s on fire! wow God is really so amazing you know. He never fails me, never ever. i’m so amazed & He just proved me & encouraged me so much more. just when i needed it. <3 JESUS I’M FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU MORE & MORE EACH DAY, THANK YOU!

yes HEARTSAFLAME. one whooosh amazing conference! they really did have very good engaging speakers. i’m amazed by them. & yes the company! TO CHOSEN ONES, FAN & DIANE, YOU GUYS ROCKEEED God kept reminding me of the vision i saw not too long ago. perhaps, this was a followup? i will never forget the 27th June. when i felt as if He & i were standing there on a cliff looking down on all the mg girls praying, crying to the Father, giving back their lives to Him, & He saying to me “My dear child, look at this marvelous revival. i want you to be part of it. i want you to help me build my kingdom”

what could i say
what could i do
but offer this heart O God
completely to You

yeah. is evangelism really the answer? is it? oh Lord, tell me.

& then today. tiffany being evangelized to isn’t exactly the best thing to do because i’m already trying hard to commit. yeah but yet God again works in His amazing ways (: somehow during the prayer i kept pondering about stuff. about all the latest things thats begun to weigh me down. i begun to think about the conflicts. things that made me.. sad. & i think for once, i really did bring all these to Jesus’ feet, laying it all down. & then when i opened my eyes, my eyes focused on Andrew (Fok)’s shirt. it was the BOB shirt. & at the back it said “I Made It Happen” yes it had totally no Christian revelence but YET, i felt as if God was telling me “look here, I made all these things happen for a reason. if i made these happen, i would know the solution. do you not doubt me? why fret so much? just come to me, lay it all down, & i’ll give you the solution. my child, i love them all. why would i forsake them. why would i forsake you. i let all these things happen for a reason. & i want to use you to somehow be a testimony”

okay maybe the testimony part was from myself. but yes i truly felt Him talking to me. i was just so so so stunned by fok’s shirt. i kept staring at those words as if they were coming so alive.

& then you know, i made that commitment all over again. i was reassured that my whole life i going to be committed to Him. not till the age of 24, but forever & ever (:

so, i’m going to try. i really am. Lord, help me.

yeah. i think i might have more reflections to put down, but i’m really zzzz now so i’m gna sleeeep! goodnight & God bless anyone who comes here tons! remember to spread God’s love <3