I Made That Happen

NOTE: POST WAS TYPED OUT ON SUNDAY, 27TH JULY 2008

like what diane said, heart’s on fire! wow God is really so amazing you know. He never fails me, never ever. i’m so amazed & He just proved me & encouraged me so much more. just when i needed it. <3 JESUS I’M FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU MORE & MORE EACH DAY, THANK YOU!

yes HEARTSAFLAME. one whooosh amazing conference! they really did have very good engaging speakers. i’m amazed by them. & yes the company! TO CHOSEN ONES, FAN & DIANE, YOU GUYS ROCKEEED God kept reminding me of the vision i saw not too long ago. perhaps, this was a followup? i will never forget the 27th June. when i felt as if He & i were standing there on a cliff looking down on all the mg girls praying, crying to the Father, giving back their lives to Him, & He saying to me “My dear child, look at this marvelous revival. i want you to be part of it. i want you to help me build my kingdom”

what could i say
what could i do
but offer this heart O God
completely to You

yeah. is evangelism really the answer? is it? oh Lord, tell me.

& then today. tiffany being evangelized to isn’t exactly the best thing to do because i’m already trying hard to commit. yeah but yet God again works in His amazing ways (: somehow during the prayer i kept pondering about stuff. about all the latest things thats begun to weigh me down. i begun to think about the conflicts. things that made me.. sad. & i think for once, i really did bring all these to Jesus’ feet, laying it all down. & then when i opened my eyes, my eyes focused on Andrew (Fok)’s shirt. it was the BOB shirt. & at the back it said “I Made It Happen” yes it had totally no Christian revelence but YET, i felt as if God was telling me “look here, I made all these things happen for a reason. if i made these happen, i would know the solution. do you not doubt me? why fret so much? just come to me, lay it all down, & i’ll give you the solution. my child, i love them all. why would i forsake them. why would i forsake you. i let all these things happen for a reason. & i want to use you to somehow be a testimony”

okay maybe the testimony part was from myself. but yes i truly felt Him talking to me. i was just so so so stunned by fok’s shirt. i kept staring at those words as if they were coming so alive.

& then you know, i made that commitment all over again. i was reassured that my whole life i going to be committed to Him. not till the age of 24, but forever & ever (:

so, i’m going to try. i really am. Lord, help me.

yeah. i think i might have more reflections to put down, but i’m really zzzz now so i’m gna sleeeep! goodnight & God bless anyone who comes here tons! remember to spread God’s love <3

UNITE :D

Christians stand strong when they stand together – the Daily Bread

Faith inspires faith - The Salvation Equation (By Adriel Loh (: )

i really REALLY think God does really have perfect timing. this past few weeks i’ve been constantly reminded of the importance of prayer, & the importance of unity within Christians. hmm & because He keeps reminding me of all these stuff. it keeps getting rooted in my brain. hahaha (:

The Salvation Equation is really a good good book! do ask me about it, because it can really blow your mind. well i think its blowing mine. plus teaching one chapter of it really taught me alot of things & made me see stuff to a whole new level. yepyep its a really good book!! ((((:

thanks to walter today. its amazing, what God has done to you. kinda inspirational. haha.

i wonder, & wonder & wonder. & i conclude:

i do not have an amazing miracle story to tell
i do not have a really great experience on how i turned from a rebel to a Christian (or something like that) to inspire others
i do not have a healing story to share
BUT
i do have a heart to offer.

& so, is that good enough? (:

i think so. afterall. its the heart, the passion, the fire that He wants right?

i think i shall put more quotes here next time (: frm all the amazing books & devotions & emails i get. i’m here on Earth to share God’s love, not keep it to myself!

I’m afraid it’s been too long to try to find the reasons why
I let my world close in around a smaller patch of fading sky
But now I’ve grown beyond the walls to where I’ve never been
And it’s still winter in my wonderland 

Chorus
I’m waiting for the world to fall
I’m waiting for the scene to change
I’m waiting when the colors come
I’m waiting to let my world come undoneI close my eyes and try to see the world unbroken underneath
The farther off and already it just might make the life I lead
A little more than make-believe when all my skies are painted blue
And the clouds don’t ever change the shape of who I am to You

When I catch the light of falling stars my view is changing me
My view is changing me

I’m waiting

 

Waiting for the World to Fall – Jars of Clay (from Music Inspired by the Chronicles of Narnia 2005)

Strength Will Rise

You are the everlasting God
the everlasting God
You do not faint
You won’t grow weary
You’re the defender of the weak
You comfort those in need
You lift us up on wings on eagles

feeling a bit sore about exam results. but still rather at peace. because i know everything’s in His hands (:

i.am.so.broke. i wish i had a donation fund to tiffany. that would be awesomely awesome. haha!

lets go watch narnia! wheeeeeee!! lalalaa (:

God has revealed to me that prayer is extremely important. its more important than anything else, because its communicating with Him, talking to Him. what can be more important than talking to our Creator? how would would we know Him if we do not talk to Him, & learn more? (thats where the reading Bible part comes in haha) like what Sandy said, if we just stop all the plans we keepmaking in subministries & just come together to pray, miracles & revival will happen. & of course, we must pray with total faith, total surrender. Don’t be like the Israelites who kept doubting God. because they doubted His power even though He showed them through so many incidents, they were not allowed into the promise land for 40years! shows how important faith is eh.

i remember how when it kept raining & raining when the whole of YM was making their way to pulau ubin & in the ferry Adriel was gathering us & quite a few other youth leaders to pray & the way he prayed was really awesome. like total faith. & i really doubted. like.. God might just want it to continue raining what right? hahaa but yes God just had to prove to me wrong! the very moment we stepped ashore it stopped raining & alottt of people even got sunburned. & then after the whole day of activites & after we got onto the ferry it started to rain like crazzzzzy. like almost storm la. yes i didn’t exactly realize that until Adriel mentioned it again & i was like wowwww. from that day onwards, my faith level just rose & i told myself never to doubt the power of prayer ever again.

hmm God’s showing me quite a lot of stuff this year! thank you thank you (: its been really exciting!

for my chinese Olevel compo i wrote about really wanting to do cip work overseas during holidays! in other words is going for a mission trip! something i really never experienced & i REALLY want to experience it for myself. & just do God’s work of spreading His love (: now thats something i really want to do for the rest of my life.

tiffany, & friends. keep that passion burning!!

Passione

we want to run to the altar
and catch the fire
to stand in the gap
between the living and the death
give us a heart of compassion
for a world without vision
we will make a difference
bringing hope to our land

bursting full of passion, i realize. haha. God changes people. for one, me.

singing songs & thinking about life with God in it makes me smile. makes me appreciate how much God has done. sometimes we need to realize & consider the little things in life & then maybe, just maybe, we can see the bigger picture He has for us oh so much clearer. i am really excited (: for everything. i know my God WILL provide! i know, because since when has He not? think about it, haha.

praise Him for exam results as well.

sometimes, i feel like i can really just fall on my knees (even if i’m sitting down!) & just, praise Him. stop whatever i’m doing & just do that. yeah. unspeakable joy as i said, is what keeps me happy. unspeakable joy i am sure, comes from the Holy spirit in me.

God is so good, He has just sparked off the determination & perseverance in me for the movement. i know we can do this yeahhh!!! (:

i’m excited for the 2nd core meeting. i wonder what God has in store for us! & its awesome that now david, gabriel & chris are joining us. hahah yay (: the 1st time we officially met was like urm, swim meet that day? haha yep (: haha its funny cus it seems to be all guys. thats mainly because the ratio of girls to guys in my small group is like 1:3? hahh yes.

alright back to chinese. BBBBBBB! no C. A would be nice, but B seems more possible haha.

& as we worship build Your throne

Jesus we enthrone You
we proclaim You are King
standing here in the midst us
we raise You up with our praise

thank you (: to those awesome people out there who have been really encouraging & haha yeah, entertaining. bigbigbigBIG thank you to you alll! really awesome people. haha. yes for enduring all my crazy panic attacks i keep having like every chapter of whatever subject heh.

thank You Lord too. although i dont think i’ll do very well this time, at least i did it with You. whatever result, i will praise You. & i will work harder for prelims! yes, i will.

3more papers, 2more days. tml’s english only. yayyyy! tml is mug hist & ss day haha (: then TEMPORARY FREEDOM! (like, one long weekend. friday till monday) on friday i’m gna be a busy woman (: like, out with friends, & then i suppose to meet church friends to compile a nice present for adriel, & then go for small group at 8.30! but now i’m asked to go for GAP & then also like meet up with the small group people to compile the stuff. so i dunno if i should skip small group or not ): see how see how! hopefully max, david they all can come up with a reasonable timing. wheeee.

RIGHT, SLEEP TIME!!

:)

ah lets see, i forgot what i wanted to say!!

oh yes. church was good, really inspiring. i guess today’s really just God telling me that He’s in control of everything, & that through Him i can make it for my midyears. hmmm YES I CAN DO IT. thanks to adriel for bringing up that point (:

other than that, for ym, it was just spent worshipping, & either laughing with david or laughing AT david. HAHA! so much for laughing at me the other time, now my turn! HAHAHAA. yes & the both of us are coming up with something so super brilliant ahh i can’t wait! midyears hurry endd! (:

i feel like i’m falling sick ): pokays i dont mind not going school tml. i rather stay home & study!

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hearts aflame conference? how? should i go? i want to, i think God wants me to go. BUT. aiyyeee.

God, help me to remember to surrender.
surrender everything to You.

swayness. thats what. haha. hmm shall ask around to see if anyone in chosen1s are goingg (:

i’m mentally preparing myself to take in the fact that i might, actually miss founder’s day dinner.

rawr.

its okay, God. i’m surrendering.