Week 4

Its been OK.
For once, I find the things I’m learning has some use for the future. (Unlike the horrendous subject also known as Amaths) I especially like the module The Professional Practitioner (PROP). It speaks much sense, it makes us reflect and just questions about what values we hold, what values are we going to bring into the classroom, what values are we going to show to our collegues, the parents, and just everyone. The fact that that particular lecturer is a Christian – a strong on in fact, makes it all the more nicer

So you see, what matters most is your values. And that makes you a professional practitioner to the fullest.
& Values, come from the Saviour.
So what matters most is putting Him into the picture

Have rather awesome classmates like MayLin Edinna Genell Afina Elaine Sharlyn YouSe Andrea and more, but I still miss people. Like Grace Jieyi Diane Celine Monica Lipin Rachel Ben Beverly YingEn Michael The-rest-of-Lawoos The-rest-of-Trackers and more. My proj group is kinda in a mess now =( But I guess and h0pe it’ll be okay soon.

I intend to (for the rest of the year):
1. Study hard when its time to study
2. Play hard without feeling guilty because of Pt 1
3.  Keep up the friendships I have outside NP
4. PLAY DURING MY JUNE HOLS WITH LOVELY PEOPLE (Thats why pt 1 has to be there during the sem!)
5. Keep up with my Quiet time and find more love and joy in my relationship with Him.
6. Give me committment to cca!

SO, MISS ME PEOPLE, AND MEET UP WITH  ME MORE OFTEN! : D

Start

New school, new friends. Friends made at FOC aren’t same course/class with me

But yet, I’m not dreading school (:

First time for real its really new everything.
(BUT also first time I never buy new bag/shoes just YET!)
With fresh dreams, a new kind of joy thats dwelling, a perhaps different girl from the time she stepped into MG Secondary.

But yet again, I’m holding on tight to whatever experiences and friendships I’ve had this past 16+years.
Especially the last 2years.
Especially the last 3months.
Grace, Lipin, Jie, Charis, Diane, Emma, 4Sdears, Handbells seniors & juniors[the extremed loved], Trackers<3
You all are extremely dear to me
So never forget me and be with me as I start yet again
(as you know, I really do need familiarity haha.)
& I’ll never forget you all of course (:
As always, I’m always showering lots of TIFFANY LOVE!

Yay.

This 3years: for God.

Surrender

Hmm, i’ll like to say again that WE HAVE AN AWESOME GOD, & HE’S JUST SO SUPER AMAZING (: (: (: I love Him from the bottom of my heart! <3

i understand why He had to say those 4words to me on sunday. it was in preparation. this week’s lesson that He has delivered to me is Forgiveness, Surrendering & just seeing & being patient with His plan. its amazing, how i’ve been thinking of the word forgiveness & that was the theme for this week’s devotions (if anyone didn’t realize). this week has been a whirlwind. & i’m glad He reminded me once again that He IS real, He is there watching over at the end of the week. He reminded us that in times of confusion & darkness He’s still there. & there’s always a lesson to be learnt out of everything, whether good or bad. i’m glad for it, in fact i can almost hug it (though technically you can’t. how can you hug an issue or matter?!) i’m so glad. like what dunno who said in Heartsaflame, use your weaknesses to testify. for it is in our weaknesses that God heals & changes. why would He bother about the strengths & good points about people when its already.. good? He came down to save the lost, the poor, the evil, the sinners. with your weaknesses, testify to people. & i believe that we can do it, with Him as our strength. its about time to get rid of horrible habits. i feel as if God was gently calling us, gently disciplining us. & i’m super thankful for that.

i’m awfully thankful for such AWESOME friends (: i admire your strength, your humbleness, your graciousness. its amazes me & encourages me. its realy amazing how God put the same thoughts in our minds. so much so we didn’t need to repeat that to each other cus we are thinking of the same thing! more time for the encouragement (: yes we need accountibilty. i thank God for such great sisters-in-Christ. <3

& so that previous paragraph was a shoutout to DIANE ONG & GRACE LEE (: thank God for you two! lets jiayou together alrigght?

on another note altogether, GRACE! my mummmmy got the Secret Soundtrack! ahhh, super lovely (:

I Made That Happen

NOTE: POST WAS TYPED OUT ON SUNDAY, 27TH JULY 2008

like what diane said, heart’s on fire! wow God is really so amazing you know. He never fails me, never ever. i’m so amazed & He just proved me & encouraged me so much more. just when i needed it. <3 JESUS I’M FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU MORE & MORE EACH DAY, THANK YOU!

yes HEARTSAFLAME. one whooosh amazing conference! they really did have very good engaging speakers. i’m amazed by them. & yes the company! TO CHOSEN ONES, FAN & DIANE, YOU GUYS ROCKEEED God kept reminding me of the vision i saw not too long ago. perhaps, this was a followup? i will never forget the 27th June. when i felt as if He & i were standing there on a cliff looking down on all the mg girls praying, crying to the Father, giving back their lives to Him, & He saying to me “My dear child, look at this marvelous revival. i want you to be part of it. i want you to help me build my kingdom”

what could i say
what could i do
but offer this heart O God
completely to You

yeah. is evangelism really the answer? is it? oh Lord, tell me.

& then today. tiffany being evangelized to isn’t exactly the best thing to do because i’m already trying hard to commit. yeah but yet God again works in His amazing ways (: somehow during the prayer i kept pondering about stuff. about all the latest things thats begun to weigh me down. i begun to think about the conflicts. things that made me.. sad. & i think for once, i really did bring all these to Jesus’ feet, laying it all down. & then when i opened my eyes, my eyes focused on Andrew (Fok)’s shirt. it was the BOB shirt. & at the back it said “I Made It Happen” yes it had totally no Christian revelence but YET, i felt as if God was telling me “look here, I made all these things happen for a reason. if i made these happen, i would know the solution. do you not doubt me? why fret so much? just come to me, lay it all down, & i’ll give you the solution. my child, i love them all. why would i forsake them. why would i forsake you. i let all these things happen for a reason. & i want to use you to somehow be a testimony”

okay maybe the testimony part was from myself. but yes i truly felt Him talking to me. i was just so so so stunned by fok’s shirt. i kept staring at those words as if they were coming so alive.

& then you know, i made that commitment all over again. i was reassured that my whole life i going to be committed to Him. not till the age of 24, but forever & ever (:

so, i’m going to try. i really am. Lord, help me.

yeah. i think i might have more reflections to put down, but i’m really zzzz now so i’m gna sleeeep! goodnight & God bless anyone who comes here tons! remember to spread God’s love <3

lost without you

oh God. help me keep the fire going, help me keep the flame burning, help me keep the joy of the Lord & the hope strong. everyone’s failing Lord, everyone’s falling. help me, to be the last one forever standing if everyone else fails.

do you know, how tired i really was. seeing everyone so urgh. i wanted to feel that way too. i wanted to be pissed at things, i wanted to cry with despair as well. hahaa talk about peer pressure. but yet, something, someone tells me to keep going. just keep going. just clinging on to the truth, the cross. to continue the genuine smile, to continue tolerating everything, everyone. to keep that paitience going.

there’s that distant light. i’m reaching out. i know that there’s someone there beside me pushing me on. that someone is none but Jesus. there’s always light at the end of the darkest tunnel. if its night time, then surely day time would come. everything, is in God’s perfect timing. His timing, not ours. thats why sometimes we can’t understand. God what, hahaa.

Lord you are amazingly wonderfully mysterious. no one can fathom Your ways.
but You ARE the way
& i’m clinging on oh so tightly to that truth.

This is the air I breathe
This is the air I breathe
Your holy presence living in me

This is my daily bread
This is my daily bread
Your very word spoken to me

And I I’m desperate for you
And I I’m I’m lost without you

another week. hang on tiffany, hang on. you’re gna make it through (:

weary? fix your eyes on Jesus

..Let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfector of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.
Hebrews 12: 1-3 

When, did anyone never feel tired, or weary? or bascially in singlish, SIAN of everything thats around us. wishing that time would just freeze for a little while & we could then just rest, or just scream our hearts out?

we all need that break, we all long for someone to just be there in our darkest times. we long for that everlasting eternal hug.

Jesus says. rest in me. rest, rest.

some people do not believe that that is possible. some people are unaware of it. some people just can’t remember that.

life goes on, we can never freeze time. thats just wishful thinking. Heaven & Earth will fade, but His word will still remain

Jesus is the same yesterday, today & forever.

He’s there for you, He’s right there beside you.

thing is, do we choose to look & fix our eyes on Him?

With One Voice

We come together with a holy purpose
We come together for the highest cause
We speak one language from a heart of worship
Gathered to bring a song to the world
for Your glory

With one voice we will sing
Every tribe and every tongue
brings a harmony
With one voice we will bring
Heaven’s beautiful melody down to this earth
As we sing to our King
with one voice

Oceans divide us
but we sing together
Now what defines us is our love of You
From every nation and across all borders
gathered to bring a song to the world
for Your glory

With one voice we will sing
Every tribe and every tongue
Brings a harmony
With one voice we will bring
Heaven’s beautiful melody down to this earth
As we sing to our King
With one voice

Come on come on and join the song
Our God our God is on the throne
Come on come on and join the song
Hallelujah hallelujah

Come on come on and join the song
Our God our God is on the throne
Come on come on and join the song
Hallelujah

Hallelujah, our God reigns
Let us all rejoice

With one voice we will bring
Heaven’s beautiful melody down to this earth
As we sing, sing to our King
With one voice
With one voice

Hallelujah, our God reigns
Let us all rejoice
Sing hallelujah
Sing His praise
Let us all rejoice

Sing hallelujah, our God reigns
Let us all rejoice
Sing hallelujah
Sing His praise
Let us all rejoice

 

& so you know, i have this passion.

God is speaking, He is. awesome-ness. hahah THANK YOU LORD for today’s oral. its really good, to just spend the hour before going into the room just seeking Him, praying, singing songs & all. & yes although my oral wasn’t as successful as i hoped it would be, it still went rather recently. hmm so i’m satisfied

“Lord, before i go in, i just wanna thank you for it. for going through it with me. remind me, to praise you whatever results it may be.”

hmm yes (: ah well. i thank God for giving me this life, for giving me the opportunity to know Him early, for placing me in mg, for providing me with pretty much awesome friends, for being my God.

hmm yes God. you WILL use me & WILL let you use me.

God is so cool. He revealed a little of my destiny. i’m excited. hahaha, i don’t care what people will say, because i’m gonna follow Him all the days of my life. i’m going to live my life to the fullest, because its His gift to me. oh Lord, i want to do more, just so much more. for Your name. (:

i don’t know what, i don’t know how, but i know who i’m doing it for.

its never for myself, never ever. in whatever i do, its for Him.

to love others no matter where they come from. it seemed difficult at first, but now it isnt that hard anymore. just see Jesus in them.

to surrender everything into His hands. it seemed so difficult, so so so difficult. but when i try, it ain’t that difficult anymore. in fact, i feel happier than before.

to share. something that i never dreamt doing in my whole entire life. something that i never pictured before. but yet, its happening. & its becoming such a passion.

from appreciation, to a joy, to a passion. it isn’t easy, but its coming through.

indeed, i can do all ALL things through Christ who strengthens me.

oh wow. i love You God <3

Lovemg08

alright! so lovemg was last night. & i’m really 100% glad i went for it! to think that i wasn’t even sure if i should go or not. & so PLENTY OF THANKS to several really awesome people!

1) Charis Fan. the one who pestered me throughout like since dunno how many days ago! hahahah (:
2) Ng Lipin! hahaha seriously la, you inspired me so much to go for lovemg. i don’t know how, but you just did. (:
3) Diane Ong. hahaa yes she did contribute in asking me if i was going
4) CHERRY FONG. HAHA. seriously, if you didn’t come pestering me the day before, the thought would have continued to stay stuck outside my brain. yes you’re probably the one that really did made me go for it (:

hahahah i kept seeing cherry & roxanne before lovemg! strange, but hmm, i love those two! (:

hmm yeah okay what really really made lovemg so much different from other events that i attended, was that i truly truly felt God’s presence! i don’t know how, but it was just there. like, even before the sermon started, during worship, i felt (& okay i did) like just crying. i was just so awe-d by His presence again. i don’t know if anyone felt it, but i really really did.

yep sermon was really awesome. hahaha somehow God made it to be an reinforcement to the sermon fan & i were watching the other day. the part on how big our God is? yeah! we all must watch it again together (:

what really touched me so much, was not going up at alter call, but it was seeing people going up there. hahaa i knew that that really wasn’t exactly for me. but what i really sensed God was saying to me was “see, so many people out there, needs to be constantly touched, look how great it is when more & more people turn to me!” wow, haha i never cried so much for such a long time. plus, it wasn’t sad. it was so touching & there & then i knew that my whole life was truly dedicated to Him. this generation needs revival, & God was just telling me that i was going to part of it. i don’t know how, but yeah, that was the real message delivered to me last night. & its amazing, so many people cried la.

God gave me the assurance, that He’s gonna use me, somehow. He kept reminding me of so many things that happened this year. joining an adult small group, adriel coming in as our ysgl, being part of the callteam, being part of the sparked thinggg(:, thurs sharing & worship session, &.. i don’t know what else. but yeah, really encouraging. haha oh yes handbells too (: yes. His hand of assurance & peace just came over me. totally.

haha & oops maybe i was crying a bit too obviously hahaha!

but yes, i loved it. lovemg. hahahaa i totally love my school! thats one thing i’m really gna miss. the Christian environment, & all the love that IN THE AIR HAHAHAAHA

ah well. sis’ birthday today. going seoul garden. after that, i really need to go shop for presents & others!

Jesus, You are everything You are

friend. whatever you typed there is something that i’ve been feeling. hahahaha <3

God is so so so good. He is always giving me surprises (: i can only be really thankful. you know, sometimes i really really thank God that i live in Singapore, a place where there’s peace, where i get the chance to know Him. like, how many people out there actually don’t get a chance to know about the gospel? at least, they didn’t get the chance to know it since young.

so many years, i never knew that knowing the gospel is different from applying the gospel. i never knew what was Christianity. nope, not at all. it was as if i was at the door, but somehow never knowing that i could actually knock & go in. 12years of that. then, i finally realized i could actually knock. & i began to do that, for 3years. & finally. on my 16th year. i finally found the key into unlocking it.

i never knew what a personal relationship with Christ is like.

hahaha well, better to be late than never (: whatever it is, i’m pretty thankful. no in fact, very. you dont know how many times i can just sit there with awe of Him, raising my hands in surrender & worship alone in my room, & the urge to dance around like there’s no tomorrow (:

God’s power, is awesome. when it overflows in yourself, the experience is just.. amazing.

give God a chance to use you, to fill you with His love, to show that He loves you, to prove to you that He is a great God.

just watch out. He’ll surprise you by going beyond your expectations.

afterall, He’s GOD, isn’t He? (:

this moment

okay so i havent blogged here for a pretty long time. haha honestly i really like this place alot better than anywhere else. i only keep my blog cus there’s so many memories there hmm (: who knows, i might just totally move here one day!

someone tell me, whats my gift?

haha things have been happening recently. happy & sad things. oh well. i conclude that i’m grateful that i have my heavenly Father up there. a Father that i can have a personal relationship with, & i’m really thankful for that. thank God for Jesus! haha cus without Him, we wouldn’t have access to God so yeah.

treasure this moment. never make the same mistake as some others.

i don’t know, but once the moment’s gone, its gone. there’s no turning back. i wish we could. but we can’t.

lalalalaaaa. school’s starting! hahaha i feel as if i havent people for agesssss. hahaha okay though we met like once, it didnt feel long enough. oh well. thanks charis fan for just talking about all sorts of things on the phone! (: havent talked to people on the phone for quite awhile already. & its something, quite pleasant. haha.

God has awesome plans. thats cus He’s awesome. wheeee. haha i know that somehow, He will always makes things straight. all you & i need to do is to surrender, trust, believe, have faith, & have hope.

i think, thats the number1 lesson that God has been teaching me this 2008. amazing stuff. haha. (: yay God, You always surprise me with..everything!

i don’t like it when people ask me what i’m gna do in the future. cus.. i really don’t know. haha! ah welllll. as in.. hahaa i don’t know how to say it. only a few people do understand i guess? hmm (:

okay i dont know what else i want to say, so till here!

(MONICA’S COMING BACK IN LESS THAN A WEEK’S TIMEEE! <3)